Hi, I am Xuel. If you want to do a quick background check, here are some labels that might help you to get a sense of me:

Bilingual, Immigrant, Neurodivergent, Queer, Meditator, Dancer, Ecospiritual, Ex-software-engineer, Intuitive, Scorpio, Enneagram Type 4, 6/2 Quad Right Manifesting Generator, Shamanic Family Lineage, ISTA-grad, Cat-lover.

If you don't know some of these weird words, don't worry, it just mean that I've gone down some rabbit holes and it became a thing :)

My Story

I was born and grew up in Nanjing, China, in a family that survived historical and intergenerational trauma. Ever since I was a kid, I found myself working as an emotional processing unit for the people around me. As a free-spirit with big dreams and curiosities, I begged my parents to allow me move to the U.S. alone at age 17. My path involves building my sense of self and belonging in a new country, transitioning from a career in software engineering at Salesforce to becoming a healing arts professional and reconnecting to my earth and sky lineages as a mystic after going through life crises and spiritual emergency.

I know personally how scary and overwhelming it can be when our core wounds of security and worthiness are triggered. I also know how liberating and alive it could feel to explore our multifaceted selfs and unlock new realities and new potentials. It is with both tenderness and faith that I show up for you, your inner child and your higher self.

In a world full of fear, I hold for the collective that darkness is an apparent absence of light and that there are always support and blessings available for us overcoming difficulties.

In 2024 I moved out of the US and began living as a nomad in China and Thailand. I currently work half time as a psychotherapist and half time as a retreat organizer and facilitator.


My Background

My background in Eastern, Shamanic and Animistic wisdom traditions provides the foundational view of my work. I've learned to trust the organic intelligence of each body and the blessing in every part of the human experience. I've found clearing pain and confusion in our body that might be passed down or undigested past traumas central to recovering our physical, energetic and emotional wellbeing, which then impact our relationships and careers.

My psychotherapy practice is a vehicle for me to embody love and wisdom and serve the earth community through weaving together ecological and collective healing, social change, magic, and the arts. However, I see the most precious factor we are cocreating here is the human in me relating to the human in you. We are each other’s mirrors seeing from the eyes of the same source.

In addition to my clinical practice, I am also a long-time Asian community organizer, group facilitator, meditator and ritualist. I have presented talks, taught workshops and led rituals on grief, resilience, ancestral healing, relational skills etc. in Bay Area, Hawaii and China since 2018. 

Relevant Professional Training & Credentials

  • M.A. in Integral Counseling Psychology from California Institute of Integral Studies 

  • B.A. in Computer Science and in Film Studies from Claremont McKenna College

  • Level 1 Internal Family System training - 2020

  • Level 2 Internal Family System/Intimacy from Inside Out training - 2023

  • Year-long practicum with the Gestalt Therapy community at Church Street Integral Counseling Center 2022-23

  • Tamura Method training (touch-based therapeutic inquiry) with Wynn Tamura with ongoing supervision group 2022-now

  • Two-Year Energy Psychology training with Lynda Caesara 2023-25

  • 108hr Energy Healing training with Berkeley Psychic School 2022-23

  • 12-week Ancestral Lineage Healing training from ancestralmedicine.org 2024

  • 6 month Classical Shaiva Tantra Meditation and Scripture Study Immersion with Christopher Hareesh Wallis 2022-23

  • 3 month Siberian Shamanism training with 众神的礼物 2024-2025

  • Currently an independent IFS practitioner and psychotherapist based in Thailand / China